the edge dulls

the cacophony of a dream juxtaposed against the silence of reality: i open my eyes and all the noises stop abruptly. my life is a lot quieter than in my dreams. it is pouring out and my room is a shade of blue. there is only the sound of rain rapping on the floors. open up, they say, the sky is broken. someone is knocking on the door. i try to kick the blanket off but it is tangled up around my legs. i struggle to the door and fell twice. i grabbed the handle and yanked the door open but there is no one. only the humid smell of an empty house.
i crawled back to bed and watched the anatomy of the overhanging light. i've forgotten the last time i let myself out.

this weblog page, this weather, and a heart, broken, is inspiring. perhaps it explains why sylvia plath is such an alluring writer. it is through the use of words that people are able to alchemize sadness into something beautiful. but i ought to learn not to be so easily won over by words. because words, in all their beauty, can sometimes carry no meaning, no promise, no hope

on a lighter note, long overdue photos from last year.

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liberatus

and to hold on to a certain feeling, she sacrificed the world.

so with the passing of the defining moment in our existence (aka the alevels), life can finally go on. and so my xanga is revived! although i'm still going to update my tumblr periodically. juggling three platforms (xanga, tumblr, twitter) can get quite challenging sometimes thus this unforgivably belated post.

currently reading:

as soon as the exams were over i dragged jc to the library with me and got myself these and jonathan safran foer for him. was planning on getting jeffrey eugenides but the library's selection is so limited i guess i'd need to wait another couple of weeks to get them over bookdepository. also ordered a dave egger's which should be here by now but isn't, really hoping the rain wouldnt ruin it.

books aside, post As has been nothing short of               madness. it's been fulfilling in a number of ways, quite like the holidays i've always envisioned: baking something different everyday and reading and meeting people. and i must say, there has never been a holiday quite like that; i almost never check things off my post-exams list. but now i'm ticking things off my mental list which is really gratifying. but then it's been quite an emotional ride too. if you follow my tumblr, you would know

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(temporarily) moved to
http://thestethoscope.tumblr.com
because it's a lot more accessible and convenient.
and i can sporadically post anything which is >twitter and xanga

then again this site holds so much sentimental value it's hard to let go of, though xanga's been quite a bitch lately what with all the ads and everything - and it's especially a problem on iphone. so at least for this busy period (which also sees an increased need for random ramblings) i'll be over at tumblr!

till death do us part

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